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Derek Tower
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There was a time when I logged into this site everyday. Sometimes I would simply stare at the blinking cursor, frustrated that what I was going through seemed just out of my ability for expression. Other times, I'd write 3 or 4 poems a day. I lived for feedback, I craved attention to my work.

I was battling depression. I still am, the only difference is that now I'm winning, and it's more or less a matter of management rather than an all out fight. A lot of my poems indicate feelings of hopelessness and loss. Many of them are about my ex girlfriend who broke up with me after I moved to my first duty station when I joined the Army. That period of my life is the source of many painful memories, and it was the fount of inspiration for some of my most powerful writing.

The thing about life is, people grow up. It takes a while to figure out, but the truth is that growing up never stops. So, having grown up, I have new inspirations to write about. The problem is that it's a more difficult task for me to write well when I'm happy than when I'm significantly sad.

I am going to leave my previous works up. I'm also going to make an effort to crank out some new material. To anyone on this site who is still reading, and to those who just chance across my page... thanks for the visit. Read a poem if you care to, comment if you feel like it. But one favor that I do ask is that you try to enjoy your day, and live it to its fullest. Life is too short to wallow.

-Derek  May 10th, 2012

Poems: 111 total (1 with awards). View By: Date | Title | Award
On the brink of disaster a tired mind travels faster (0)Phoenix (2)Daughter (2)
Get Ready For War (1)If I Die in the Old Drop Zone (10)I'm Sorry Aiva (3)
I Married You (6)To Grandma- Rest Peacefully (2)The Wastebasket is Empty (3)
Silent Still (2)Hell (2)Breathe (4)
Distantly Close (3)To Rin (2)Where the Heart Is (3)
The Forest Queen pt. 1 (1)Anniversary (1)Blue Skies (1)
I Love You (5)Cogitation: On Lost Love (3)I Quit Breathing for a Second (2)
A Glance at Futility (1)Cogitation: On Memories and Dreams (1)Repeat (1)
To Myself (3)Hidden (2)Therapy (3)
Goodbye (3)Soulscape (5)Phonetically Unstable (6)
To Those Who Have Commented (4)Hollow (4)To ---- (7)
Calmly Crying, Solitude (2)To Courtney (2)Shatter the Silence (4)
Qualified (4)Echo (3)Muse Enough For Me (3)
Rippled Reflection (2)Pieces (2)Speak to Me (1)
Remenisce (0)Untitled (3)Frustrated (3)
All Night (4)To Autumn (4)Conflicted (5)
The Explanation (4)The Attempt (5)Goodbye, mommy, goodbye (4)
Epitaph (1)Control (3)You and Me (2)
Internally Bound (1)Promise Yourself (2)Meditation (1)
Siren (0)Revenge of the Tortoise (3)Staggered (1)
Passing Time (1)Quickly Sinking (1)Life's Deception (1)
I Miss You (9)It's On Me (3)To My Muse (3)
Once Again (1)The Final Write (6)Broken (3)
Today Was the Day (3)Silver Lining (0)Guilty (4)
Helping Hand (2)Fallen (4)I Write For (6)
Mourning Flowers (6)My Dreams (1)Survival (0)
Mask (4)The Bumble Bee (1)Waking Up in Darkness (0)
One Step Forward, Two Steps Back (1)Broken Record (1)Just For You (1)
Last words (4)Unconditional (3)Halfway (1)
Silence (3)Hold On (5)Another (4)
My Point of View (1)Questions (5)The Truth (3)
In Constant Sorrow (3)Never Enough (5)My World (2)
Full Circle (3)Nothing Changed (4)It was me (3)
Through My Tortured Eyes, an Open Soul (9)Regret (4)Lemonade (6)
Through (3)To Nicole (6)Friends (2)
The Darkness (7)Acceptance (6)Who Will Be There (7)
The Ocean (5)Unwanted (5)My Life, Thus Far (5)

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Depression - A Definition by mangallel
Secretly by Chrysanthemum
Spare Us This Misery by cuddlytiger
Imprint by Chere
waking up next to nothing by Chrysanthemum
I'm sorry. I love you. You've lost me. Goodbye by .. ..Pocket Monster.. ..
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