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May 9, 2005
|About Me ||There was a time when I logged into this site everyday. Sometimes I would simply stare at the blinking cursor, frustrated that what I was going through seemed just out of my ability for expression. Other times, I'd write 3 or 4 poems a day. I lived for feedback, I craved attention to my work.
I was battling depression. I still am, the only difference is that now I'm winning, and it's more or less a matter of management rather than an all out fight. A lot of my poems indicate feelings of hopelessness and loss. Many of them are about my ex girlfriend who broke up with me after I moved to my first duty station when I joined the Army. That period of my life is the source of many painful memories, and it was the fount of inspiration for some of my most powerful writing.
The thing about life is, people grow up. It takes a while to figure out, but the truth is that growing up never stops. So, having grown up, I have new inspirations to write about. The problem is that it's a more difficult task for me to write well when I'm happy than when I'm significantly sad.
I am going to leave my previous works up. I'm also going to make an effort to crank out some new material. To anyone on this site who is still reading, and to those who just chance across my page... thanks for the visit. Read a poem if you care to, comment if you feel like it. But one favor that I do ask is that you try to enjoy your day, and live it to its fullest. Life is too short to wallow.
-Derek May 10th, 2012