Profile Details for Free member: iweartshirts (Viewed: 3432 times)
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August 24, 2006
|About Me ||SO this is where I tell about me...Where to begin, where to begin... hmmm ok,. I love everything that I shouldn't and am passionate about everthing I love. I aspire to perfection only because I know I am far from it. My passion for all things good and bad often leaves me in turmoil. What is life if not pain. Regret is a senseless emotion. I cherish every one of my mistakes and am not ashamed of them. They made me who I am and help navigate my future choices. I have never learned from the mistakes of others. I was once told that a wise man learns from the mistakes of others. I am not sure if I agree. I like to make my own mistakes, that's what makes life interesting. I don't handle change well, even small changes...like changes in plans. Since life is all about change, I am trying very hard to work on this weakness. Breaking up really IS hard to do and causing pain to anyone else really tears me up inside on so many levels. Of course I am not going to deny that it is better to leave than be left. Anyone who says the opposite is a liar. I am an ideal friend for some and a relationship nightmare for others. Sometimes both. I am a lot to handle and thankfully, finally found someone up to the challenge who I absolutely adore. I am often accused of having a distorted reality and perception of others. I like people so I try to do what I can to be a helpful, friendly and comforting person. This sometimes means filtering out negativity. Most of the time, the details of the truly unpleasant, I would be better off not knowing. I would like to die knowing that the world is, indeed, a good place. I have seen how dark it can be and I have seen how dark I can make it. What I discovered was it is only as dark as I allow it to be. I am not naive. I just don't embrace my dark side quite so much. Happiness is so much more fulfiling. I love actually waking up in the morning after a wonderful night's sleep and looking forward to my day. I have so much for which I am grateful. I have escaped demise on several occasions....too numerous to remember them all. I am lucky to be alive and have such a blessed life. Music is my outlet, my therapy, my friend, my lover and may one day be the death of me. But until then, I will continue to be penetrated by its beauty and magic every moment it surrounds me. My passion makes me creative. Or maybe they are the same thing....