It all started when I was five
Daddy came into my room one night
Said he had a special game he wanted to play
Just between the two of us
I was to be a good daddyís girl and not tell mommy
I was so young but I knew something was wrong
I just didnít understand what yet.
I would dread the coming night
When daddy would come to play his game
It started with just him touching me
In my special places
As I grew older the game began to change
He put his fingers inside me
In front and back
Heíd wiggle them around
It hurt so much
I begged him to stop
But he just told me to be quite
To let him win the game
He broke my sacred trust
The bond between father and daughter
It was shattered forever
The night he chose to enter me
One night when I was 11
My father unzipped his pants
I froze with fear as I saw he was hard
He thrust himself with in me
Faster and faster till finally he hit his climax
He left me crying in a sweat drenched bed
Full of sadness and despair
Daddy, why did you do this to me?
Did I do something wrong?
Why do you punish me so?
Why donít you love me?
I donít know if mom just didnít know
Or didnít care what happened to me
Did she live in fear of him?
Is that why she never helped me?
When I was 13 I decided I would play the game no more
I went to the police
They arrested my father on child abuse and rape
I testified and sent him to jail
He will never hurt me again
It doesnít make it better
It still hurts inside
I will never forgive him for taking away my innocence
For ruining my childhood
For not being a normal dad
Who protects and nurtures their kids
Instead of destroying them