The arrows of cupid pierced my heart.But this time, he set his arrows on fire, he left my heart burning with passion and love for you. A love so strong that it can withstand a decade of torture, the torture of knowing that I have you, and yet I can't hold you, the torture of saying I love you, and yet there's no way for me to show it, the torture of the thought that one day I might lose you.
Jaan, every day a storm of emotion always gushes from my soul, and there's just no cure for my insanity, sometimes I wonder, why did God place me in such a situation, what did I do to deserve this?
Is God really testing us? Does God enjoy tormenting me? And yet all I can do is live like this, there really is no choice but to carry this burden, for we know that things like this would happen if we give our love a chance, but what is love with out any hardships and trials, for it is in this kind of test that a relationship is measured, how long are we going to hold on? To what would this relationship lead to?That I do not know.
It is up to us to keep holding on, and when the time comes and our hearts are still bonded together, only then can we celebrate our love, for we have proven that we can over come all temptations and surpass all expectations of those around us.
Jaan I want our relationship to last for a life time, and I know we can overcome all of this, with love and faith as our foundation. Our love can surpass even the greatest storm.
And yet we are under a very crucial state, where anyone can take any of us away from each other, that's the risk that we care taking if we were to be in a long distance relationship, I obviously do not want to get hurt,I am afraid that I wouldn't last it.But my feelings are so strong that I am willing to give it a try and hope for the best.
Jaan I am ready for what ever will happen to us, I am ready, I am willing to get hurt, I am willing to bleed, I will withstand this hardship even if it costs me my life, to be honest, I am not usually this emotional when it comes to things like this, but what can I say? Your love has given me the urge to go miles after miles, your love is what drives me, your love feeds my heart, your love is everything for me, and I think that I cannot live even just for one second if you took that love away from me,no one can take this feeling away from me.
I love you with all my heart and soul; I hope that you feel the same way , I want you to know that I am always being true to my words, these words come from the very depths of my heart, this is what I feel for you.I guess even a woman like me could sometimes lose her grip of what a married woman should be, but there's no shame in love, every part of it must be cherished and treasured.
My Sweetheart, please wait for me, I pledge my loyalty, together with my undying love, I wish for the best for us.
Thank you Sweetheart, thank you for giving our love a chance.
I love you.