Reply to Ali: (Same reply I have toward all members here.)
Here is the bottom line, Ali. I spend half the day doing this as it is. I spend the other half looking for jobs in an economy that does not have room for me. I have put forth an entrepreneural venture called Poet Storm. If Poet Storm does well enough, I can stop looking for jobs and do this full time. You want me here? Guess what: SUBMIT SOMETHING TO MY MAGAZINE!
What you basically JUST got done saying is that you think my writing draws the masses. I have made plenty clear that I will put one of my poems in every issue of Poet Storm that ever goes to print. If you truly feel that my writing draws people, then how could you NOT to get involved? So what do you believe, Ali? What do you believe?
Because I WILL make money writing. And having gotten to know some of the greatest minds this site has to offer, I would love nothing better than to take those of you down that road with me. But if you won't come then guess what? I'll go it alone. Having said that, I want you all to understand that I am not giving up on Poet Storm just yet. In fact, it is for the interest of the magazine that I am moving to another site, where average daily users number in the thousands. Bigger public, greater potential for submissions. I do realize that such a large bowl also makes me a smaller fish... but from a biblical perspective- Goliath Assassin LIKES those odds!
How many good, solid, talented, strong, honest poets does this site have? Ten? Twenty? Fifty? I have SIX sumbissions from TWO cp members and about fifteen of you saying "I'll give my portfolio a look..." I have had two artists give up on me because I cannot give them the amount of poetry I promised them for inspiration. If all of you who were capable would put your swords out like I do, there would be nothing to stand in our way.
Here is how it's going to be from now on: I will run screaming through every poetry site I find from now until Poet Storm has gotten off the ground. Those who scream back at me the loudest will have me coming back to their site most regularly. I will yell and scream and swing my sword like a fool until I rouse the hearts of an army of poets. And should that fail, I'll yell and scream and swing my sword like a fool until I personally cut through every obstacle in my path. Either scenario involves me running. That is why sitting on my ass right here won't do me any good.
So how are you guys supposed to yell and get my attention? Like I said, I've "fixed the settings" on my profile page. The e-mail you should see when you get there is GoliathAssassin@yahoo.com. BLOW MY BOX UP, people! (Letters containing small talk should STILL contain submissions. No attatchments, please, just copy-paste. Don't feel comfortable? Then don't submit. The maximum three limit has been removed. Submit as many as you want. I will backlog all the poetry "not being used" for future issues, should sumbissions sporadically run low.) I love you all. I see more in you than you see in yourself. Vision knows no bounds. Sorry, I must be going...
I wanted to reply here to let you guys know that I am not simply ignoring what you have said. I don't know where the divide between hard-headedness and good sense "officially" rests... but I am not giving up on Poet Storm yet. Maybe it won't ever replace my job. (And I never cared about getting insanely-rich, for the record) But I WILL make money writing somehow. Maybe I'll end up producing music albums to make a breakthrough. But as it stands right now, Poet Storm is my main focus.
Ali-You're seasoned and wise. I probably SHOULD listen to you. But that's exactly why I'll choose not to. Many of the things that succeed in life are things that nobody saw coming... besides the creator. Sometimes, even the idea's creator has low expectations for how high it will go. I'd rather be the fool who tried and got nowhere than the sage who gives up and does what everybody else does. Don't read into it. It means nothing more than what it says. I value your talent and mean no disrespect you. I also value whatever friendship between us my recent antics have been unable to destroy.
Amy-Yes, I am hard on myself and others. Which is why I will eventually get something done. I don't have a honey, and I'm not commonly very sweet of my own accord... so it's pretty hard for me to turn around and give what is in such short supply. I want people to like me as naturally as any other human being does. But I'd rather gain respect than admiration. I'm tired of being a nobody. Friends are friends, and that's good for recreation. But with Poet Storm, I'm looking for mutual accountability.