you where suppose to be my man of life ,
but I'm slowly came to realize. that the man i fell in love with has gone away .
your not the person i knew the person i felt so much love and tenderness in which you showed me.
there was once that i remembered you put my feeling first you listened you cared .
but you change and i changed along with your actions your treatment .
i have tried so many time keeping my emotions to my self ,but it just at a place where i can't take it anymore ,
all i ever wanted in my life is for a man to show me he loves me to claim his love for me,
to show me he cares for me more than anything , i wanted some one who would fight for me , who would defend even when I'm wrong and then after we are alone correct me but at least in front of anyone he would defend me ,
i wanted a life of love and happiness ,some one to hug me when I'm sad, to kiss me when I'm mad , to turn my frown inside out.
i wanted a family, build a home with another kids love and happiness,
i wanted a man that appreciates me and cherish and value me , a man that no matter who or what will always say thats my wife and she will always be first .
someone who instead of calling bad word , tell me I'm beautiful tell me that they love me , that he happy he met me and that his life has meaning because i am in it
but the reality is one and only one
i will never find someone to truly love me ,
someone who will marry me and be faithful to me,
the truth is that i will never get married , ever , and i will have to end up alone with no one here but my child ,
the truth is i meant to be alone
so the best thing for me to do is walk away ,
and leave everything behind because whats the point of loving so hard if I'm not going to get loved back