They all say have fun.
But the reality is that Iâ€™m just trying to run.
From my thoughts, from this house.
The flashbacks coming back, the tearing of a blouse.
I never wanted this freedom.
I didnâ€™t want to be let loose in this fucked up kingdom.
The booze just makes me numb.
But, they canâ€™t keep me from feeling dumb.
Oh how I trusted.
After every thing you were I lusted.
Body after body trying to forget.
Youâ€™ll never get to see me upset.
Not a tear will I shed for what was.
I just keep chasing this buzz.
Memory after memory I just replace.
No matter what though I wonâ€™t forget your face.
I wonâ€™t forget how it felt.
To have everything you are ripped out.
I wonâ€™t forget finding her info in our house.
No I donâ€™t think she will be a spouse.
What begins in lies ends in lies.
Youâ€™ll see as time flies.
Fight after fight the feelings will fade.
Itâ€™s funny you thought you had it made.
The grass isnâ€™t greener on the other side.
Your just a lie and you just hide.
No one knows who you are.
You donâ€™t even know who you are.
Take off that mask.
And let someone see the facts.