Looking down from heaven

can you see our state of mind

 

Can you see our tears and anger

at the mess you've left behind

 

Do you see that we love you

and wanted you to stay

 

You were given so much time

to simply change your ways

 

You had so many chances

it was all within you grasp

 

But you took another drink

and on us you turned your back

 

You had all a man could want

and let it slip right through your hands

 

Neither your reasons or your choices

will I ever understand

 

The question will ever linger

why we weren't good enough for you

 

And we have to keep telling ourselves

that this just wasn't true

 

It was a bitterness within

that just could not be explained

 

So we pray for your soul

that our love was not in vain

For 30 years I watched the father of my children drink himself to death.

Doctors started warning him he should not drink in 2008. Flat out told him to stop drinking and smoking in 2010. He did not listen and in 2018 he was given six months to live. He lasted two years, four months, one day...

Watching our children see him slowly kill himself is the most painful thing I have ever had to witness. We have six children. Our oldest is 29. Our youngest is 18. We have four grandchildren that will never get to know their grandpa. He was only 56 years old.

This breaks my heart to read! Addiction is a horrid beast, with flaming breath that slowly burns away the heart and soul and willpower that often cannot be broken away from. I'm so sorry for you, your children and your grandchildren! What a painful, devastating thing for you all to have to witness...

Hugs to you all!

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Heartbreaking! There is nothing  simple about changing one’s ways when addiction is involved. It had him in its grasp. You were enough but addiction is a powerful beast and it is often impossible to break away from it. Hugs to you.

 

~Barbara D.

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 a lot of unanswered questions add to the sadness of saying good-bye.

I'm sorry for your loss.

You penned this poem with courage in your heart

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so sad to watch someone to go like that. your poem should be posted at AA meetings .

dan

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